September 24, 2002

Re-Evaluating Winter


Here's a winter memory from a lovely snowfall we enjoyed in January, 2002. More below...




I used to say I hated winter, but I'm re-evaluating that statement. The cool fall nights have me in mind of putting the garden to bed, raking leaves, and settling in for a cozy winter. Thought I don't like the usual winter weather our area offers (cold and damp - we get more rain than snow I think), I love the simple rest it offers. The pace of life slows and we light candles on those early winter evenings and listen to music more often. We read, cuddled under the various lap throws that are scattered throughout our home. True, we also wipe mud from the dogs' feet (that's twelve feet now!) and from ours, and the cold can get a little old. But I don't fret about my plants not getting enough water, about the stuff still needing to be deadheaded, and I don't chastise myself for not weeding. Yes, I really do like winter for the different things it offers -- But perhaps I'm only glamorizing it in absentia, LOL. Anyway, wouldn't you think that warm doorway looked inviting? And isn't that guy up there cute?

September 23, 2002

Okay, Busgirlie, this one's for you. Complete this phrase for me, and end the day-long debate Howie and I have had over this.

She's a Rose Princess
Dancin' ___ ___ ____

September 22, 2002

I'm still feeling dizzy and headachey, so I've not been at the computer much. Even when I am online, I'm just kind of aimlessly wandering and unfocused (more unfocused than usual, LOL!). Don't expect anything earth shattering from this neck of the woods for a few days, LOL. In fact, the biggest news around our house is that Howie and our friend Mark replaced our horribly wobbly concrete back steps with a nice set of wooden stairs. Wow, what a difference that makes! No longer do we have to wedge bits of stone and concrete beneath the pre-formed concrete steps to keep them from wobbling. No longer is there a loud clunk when we go in or out of the back door. Best yet, we no longer must step down as soon as our feet cross the threshhold of the door; the first step is even with the door now, so there's a nice 14" spot to tread before taking a step down. When negotiating two leashed, enthusiastic dogs, this is a key thing. The dogs didn't quite know what to think of the new steps for a while, and it was funny seeing them react to them. They've given them a good sniffing, though, and now walk on them with almost no trepidation.

Today I give thanks for sweaty men who make the world a better place. :)

September 20, 2002

FridayFive.org Time



1. Would you say that you're good at keeping in touch with people?
I am much better at it since e-mail. I always mean to pen actual notes, and sometimes I even do, only to forget to mail them; at some point the news in them becomes embarrassingly old and I discard the sealed envelope only to begin afresh. But I am very good about answering e-mail!

2. Which communication method do you usually prefer/use: e-mail, telephone, snail mail, blog comments, or meeting in person? Why?
Nothing beats getting something in the mail and having that handwriting to cherish. Next to that, I prefer e-mail because (1) I am an archivist at heart and I love being able to go back and look at old correspondence, (2) it is so timely and (3) it is so convenient.

3. Do you have an instant messenger program? How many? Why/why not? How often do you use it?
Yes, I have several. I used the free version of Trillian for a while because it allowed me to combine the three IM programs I use into a single application, but it was buggy and I finally decided it wasn't worth the hassle. I use MSN predominantly, though I'm careful to only chat with those I know from elsewhere. I use it daily, several times a day. I also use Yahoo IM and, on occasion, AOL IM.

4. Do most of your close friends live nearby or far away?
My closest friends, my years-long friends live within an hour or so radius of us, and that's nice. Other friends I've met online and, later, in the flesh, are spread all around the country! I love the Internet. :)

5. Are you an "out of sight, out of mind" person, or do you believe that "distance makes the heart grow fonder"?
I think it largely depends on the quality of your relationship with that person. Certainly the personality quirks which annoy us seem distant; it's easy to glamorize a person in absentia. Conversely, a good friend is a sweet breath of fresh air you come to miss like the scent of flowers in the winter.

J.M. Barrie says it best: "God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December". So it is with friends, yes?

September 19, 2002

Pick A Winner and Take Me To DQ


Joanie's nose-picker story reminds me of a story a friend told me once. He was out driving his car on the freeway and glanced over at the driver of the car next to him as he passed it. That car's driver was a pretty lady, who waved at him. Sweet! What she failed to remember was that she had a wad of Kleenex sticking out of her nose. He politely motioned, pointing toward his nose, and she responded by rolling her eyes a little and waving again, in thanks. This whole interchange took place in a few seconds, a marvel in non-verbal communication.

By the way, to view two funny Kleenex TV ads, go here.

The second thing that entry in Joanie's blog brought to mind was a childhood trip to Dairy Queen with my father. It was a big deal to order for myself, so I marched right up to that counter and very maturely ordered a brassiere burger.

Yeah, as in bra. Over-the-shoulder-boulder-holder. Double-slingshot. I couldn't spell it at that point in my life, but I darned well knew how it was pronounced! I don't remember much except my father laughing and my thinking "well Brazier sure looks like it ought to be prounounced brassiere"!


A Countdown


This nifty list thingie I found on Joanie's site

Ten movies you'd watch over and over:
1. As Good As It Gets
2. Braveheart
3. The Princess Bride
4. Shawshank Redemption
5. Star Trek (any of 'em)
6. The Matrix
7. The Abyss
8. Pleasantville
9. You've Got Mail
10. A Christmas Story


Nine people you enjoy the company of:
Only Nine?? This list is not all-inclusive!
1. Howie (& our family)
2. Amy
3. Angie
4. John
5. Amy
6. Noah
7. Bonnie
8. Lisa
9. Yeah, and me ;)

Eight things you're wearing:
1. Wedding Band
2. Glasses
3. Barrette
4. Right earring
5. Left earring
6. Undergarments
7. Outergarments
8. A smile

Seven Things on your Mind:
1. Getting over this cold
2. Hoping Howie doesn't catch it
3. Cleaning I need to do
4. Deciding it can wait until I feel better
5. Writing, how I enjoy it
6. Contemplating bringing my music keyboard upstairs
7. How fleeting the days are

Six objects you touch everyday:
1. My glasses
2. A coffee cup
3. My hubby
4. My cats
5. My dogs
6. My dogs' leashes


Five things you do everyday:
1. Kiss my hubby
2. Wake up with no alarm
3. Eeeeeeliminiate
4. Surf the Internet
5. Count my blessings

Four bands that you couldn't live without:
1. Phil Keaggy & Sunday's Child
2. The Beatles
3. Men at Work
4. Randy Stonehill & band

Three of your favorite songs at this moment:
1. You're Worthy of My Praise (version from John Tesh's CD A Deeper Faith)
2. Shoofly Pie (Doris Day)
3. You Are Still Holy (as sung by Kim Hill)


Two people that have influenced your life the most:
1. Mom
2. John

One person that you love more than anyone in the world:
1. Howie

Mirror Mirror...


Well, I finally did it. I submitted a photo to
The Mirror Project and they put it up today. I owe it all to Randal, the Big White Guy...Even if he did shave his goatee off in a moment of abandon, I admire the guy. Hey, we even have the same camera - how cool is THAT? If he can take such great shots with his Olympus, I know I can do better.

September 18, 2002

NyQuil Poster Child


You know that commercial for NyQuil, the one that says it's the "nighttime, sniffling, sneezing, coughing, aching, stuffy head, fever so you can rest medicine"? I am destined to be their poster child, I think. And this cold or flu - whatever it is - wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for the poop.

No, not mine. Buddy's. Our beagle has the runs, and it's been oh-so-fun at our house today. I awoke to the sound of Howie making gagging noises as he cleaned up the first mess of the day, one which the dog managed to make right on top of some computer cables, coax cable and phone lines. I've been taking the dogs out regularly, hoping to avoid any more accidents, but I'm afraid he did it again. I cleaned up the little spot I saw, thinking it was good it was just that little bit...Then I saw more under my desk. Much more. On the carpet, of course.

Waaaaaah! Can I just say that I'm really sick of bodily fluids today, human and otherwise? *sniffle* Okay, I've had my pity party.

September 17, 2002

Tourism by Microsoft


This computerized kiosk is in the foyer at Heini's Cheese Shop in Berlin, Ohio. People seemed divided into two camps at the sight of me laughing and snapping shots of this thing: those who stared unabashedly and those who averted their eyes. ;)





Better late than never...Monday Mission time!



1. Do you have a favorite piece of poetry or prose written by someone else? Care to share it?

I am very fond of Robert Frost's Stopping by the Woods on a Snowy Evening, especially the last line, And miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before I sleep. How often I've felt that way when out enjoying time photographing nature, then realizing how late the hour's gotten and how I need to get home!

2. In High School, did you enjoy creative writing? Do you currently do any other writing in addition to your Blog?

I loved creative writing in high school. One year I was an editor for the Literary Magazine, and that was fun, too. I always write, but not always publically. To me, e-mails deserve as much care and attention as "real" writing. Some of my favorite things to read are well-written letters I receive from friends and family. I want to do more writing, though, even free-lancing if I can find the right avenues.

3. Have you ever noticed that the Blog entries you least expect to get the most comments do, and those you expect to generate a lot of feedback don't? Which Blog entry of yours surprised you by getting a lot of comments? Which one did you think would generate a lot but didn't?

I never expect many comments, so I am really glad when I do see them. I get private e-mails from people, too, and that's fine. I just like hearing back from others; the blogger's curse, I suppose!

4. Sometimes you get a chance to make a lifestyle change that has a huge impact on the course your life takes. That is, a moment where something became very clear to you, and that realization changed your life, such as: the need to leave a relationship, to stop an addiction, to bond with someone, to start a new career, and so on. Have you ever had an "awakening" moment in your life?

There are far too many to mention. Realizing I wanted to marry Howie was a big one. We'd gotten to be friends over a period of almost a year, and three days after we first kissed and began dating in earnest, I realized I didn't want to be with anyone but him. I blurted this out to him one evening, then freaked out that I'd said it, feeling it was carved in stone. Then, I realized it was okay even if it had been carved in stone, because it was so true.

Recently, I have become much more aware of how my actions affect other people, both positively and negatively. I know I need to be out with people, not only for myself and my need to connect, but also to encourage them. And I know I need to work much harder on not running late, because it devalues the person who's waiting when I dilly-dally around and run behind. Gee, I think my most recent realization can be summed up in the words it ain't all about me!

5. Then there are other times where you can have a huge impact on someone else's life. You suggest they see a doctor, stop them from taking that last drink, or maybe just say some kind words at the moment. Have you made a lasting positive impact on the life of someone else?

I sure hope so. I try to encourage people, even complete strangers. I try to smile, knowing how one smile can bouy my heart on a rough day. I believe very much in the power of words.

6. Are there any charities or organizations which you support? How did you come to be involved with them?

Mainly, we support our church, though we've been absent for a long time and have not been as faithful with our pocketbooks as we once were. Other than that, I am more vocally supportive than financially.

7. Care to collaborate with me? Help me out and write the rest of this poem:

I drifted though a dream last night,
visions full of colors bright.
My thoughts began to drift to you,
and in an instant we were two.

I touched your hand,
We began to blend,
Filled with a feeling
that should have no end.


A question knitted tight your brow
You tried to ask, not knowing how
To vocalize that heart-felt need
Without sounding full of greed

BONUS: Hey cutie, what's up with this attitude?

Awww, c'mon Babyface, don't be cruel...

Cold Viruses by E-Mail


Well, I have a cold. I swear, I got this virus from my aunt, who e-mailed me and said she and her hubby have just reached the turning point in their colds and are starting to feel better. This insiduous cold virus of hers made its way through cyberspace and landed right on my fingertips. Thanks, Bonnie. *sigh* Right now, I could sing a low baritone rather than alto. I could give Phoebe Buffay a good run for her money with the sexy cold-voice thing. I have a voice which would scare small children, so keep them away. Keep them away, anyway; I don't want their germs right now, since I have quite enough of my own, thankyouveddymuch.

Now that you're sufficiently grossed out, let me post a pretty little picture to make up for it. This is Emma, mooning over her beloved Nylabone:

September 16, 2002

Lap Dance

This Lap dance is one of the funniest Flash animations I've seen. Don't worry, it's just about a guy and his cat, LOL.

The Bunnies' Keeper

TLC for the bunnies This boy was shielding these dwarf rabbit babies from the sun at the family's small market set-up near Heini's Cheese Shop in Berlin, Ohio. He and his brothers took turns holding the umbrella, and a battery-powered fan also provided a breeze. I stood a discreet distance away and used the zoom on the camera, and I made sure not to get a full-face shot of the boy...But I had to take this picture. Having the LED on enabled me to rest the camera on a fencetop and glance down at the screen to frame the shot rather than holding the camera up to my eye.

September 15, 2002

Yesterday Howie and I drove over to Berlin with my folks, our friend Kathy following us in her plant-packed car, for a get-together with some other Ohio Dave's Garden folks. We visited a bit in the parking lot of Tis The Season a year-round Christmas shop, traded some plants and seeds, then headed over to Der Dutchman for some good food. It's always been so cool to meet the folks we've come to know and enjoy online, and this was no exception. They're the salt of the earth. :)

I spent the night at Angie's last night and Howie got to be a bachelor and watch a football movie with the dogs, LOL. Angie'd invited me to church with her since it was Friend Day, so I thought why not? It was really cool, from the Sunday school talk to the worship (great music!) to the sermon. It was just what The Doctor ordered. Angie's going to be baptised tonight, so I'm hanging out with her all day and meeting Howie back at the church for the service. It's been such a cool weekend, even if I was reluctant to get moving. I always enjoy being out and around people once I get going...It's just the getting-going that's tough.

Thanks, Angie. :)

September 13, 2002

The Friday Five



1. What was/is your favorite subject in school? Why?

It was definitely art. It allowed me to be creative without having to adhere to rules of syntax. It also let me lose myself in the medium for even that finite time, something important for a troubled kid. Anyone who creates with their hands will know what I'm talking about; it's wonderful.

2. Who was your favorite teacher? Why?

It would have to be David Scherer, who taught my fourth grade class at Wescott Elementary in Northbrook, IL. He had brown hair and a beard, and kind eyes. My home life was violent and dismal with my father, and I carried my frustration and anger to school. I acted out Mr. Scherer's class as I did in all my classes, but with him I'd met my match. A telling memory I have is about a day he told me to go to the Principal's office. I refused and sat stubbornly at my desk. Well, Mr. Scherer grabbed onto the desk and pulled it -- and me -- down the hallway toward the Principal's office! Looking back, I wonder if he just did that in terrific humor, or if I pissed him off so much he didn't know what else to do!

We had big cardboard study carrols to use in the classroom, letting us make cubicles out of our desks (early indoctrination into a Dilbert society! My God!!). Mr. Scherer set up the carrols like a gameshow set and held spelling contests, too. It was in his class that I learned to spell psychology; we all learned to spell it by year's end. Do kids still learn to spell psychology in fourth grade?

He also was the person responsible for me finishing the required half-mile track for the President's Physical Fitness Program. I was as far from athletic as a kid could be, and I hated gym class. Mr. Scherer stayed after school with me one day and we went around that half-mile track together, alternately walking ten steps and jogging ten steps until we had finished. I still am not athletic, but that memory really stays with me.

And, yes, I was hopelessly in love with him. In truth, he was the first positive male role model I ever had. He left teaching to work at a bank, and for a while we kept in touch by phone. His leaving the education field was a loss for children, especially those without a niche of their own.

3. What is your favorite memory of school?

Second to all those I listed above, it would have to be the times I snuck out of lunch period and went to eat lunch with Joseph Zulawski, my seventh-grade art teacher at John H. Springman Junior High in Glenview, IL. I was labelled a behavioral problem and bussed to that school to participate in that school's special ed classes. I was a very bright girl, and bored silly with what they tried to pass off as lessons. The one place I found myself was in the arts arts, both visual and music. We'd sit and eat and just talk as friends. He was another good man God saw fit to put in my life.

When I graduated from eighth grade, Mr. Zulawski gave me a box of treasures: a box of charcoals, an art gum eraser, a timer...Just an odd assortment of little things, but ones I treasure. I don't do charcoal drawings to speak of, but I still have that worn little grey cardboard box of charcoal sticks. Mr. Z and I corresponded for a while after I moved to Ohio, but we lost touch. He was a good man.

4. What was your favorite recess game?

Reading. I hated recess. I wasn't a popular kid, and didn't play kickball, hopscotch and all that. I was pretty much self-entertaining, and I still am. Not that I didn't want to be with people, and not that I don't enjoy being around people now, no. I just play well by myself. :)

5. What did you hate most about school?

I think the darkest time school-wise was junior high. In retrospect, I realize I was clinically depressed as a pre-teen and teenager. Back in those days, I went to a counselor, but they just didn't give kids anti-depressants. I wonder how differently my life would have turned out had I had those amazing, helpful medications back then instead of decades later.

As I said, I was sent to a neighboring town for school because they had a special ed program. The stigma attached to any kids in those classes was longstanding. That, combined with my then-combative nature and lashing out, made school life difficult. Until I was "mainstreamed" into the "normal" classes there, my lessons were comprised of readings, followed by questions and sometimes puzzles, from workbooks so simplistic it was embarrassing. I would get weeks worth of lessons done in an afternoon, then have time to kill. Nothing's worse than an emotionally hurting, but intelligent child who has run out of things with which to occupy her time. I got in trouble a lot, but Mr. Zulawski was my saving grace and sanity during that time. If you're out there, Mr. Z, I love you.


September 12, 2002

A new twist on the lemon truism


I read this today at The Anti-Adelphia Movement, and it struck me rather funny:
When life gives you lemons, squeeze the juice into a water gun and shoot as many people as you can in the eye.

Don't you just feel like doing that sometimes? ;)

September 09, 2002

Real Men Do Clean!

In answer to Vikki's question, yes, I have been cleaning! Howie borrowed his friend's steam cleaner this weekend, and he cleaned the carpet, couch and loveseat (and the myriad of cushions that go on them). He attacked the living room with the gusto of a true man -- nothing was beyond his reach. The baseboards, the exposed wood floors, even the windows! AND he took the miniblinds outside and hosed them down. Boy, I love that man! In the meantime, I concentrated on cleaning the &%#)^ out of the bathroom and kitchen. Will the smell of ammonia ever leave my hands? ;)
To all you lurkers: Glad you're here. Just wanted to say hi. You can comment - I won't bite! ;)

Promoguy's Monday Mission

1. Where were you and what was happening in your life the moment when you first became aware of what was happening at the World Trade Center in New York City last September 11th? What was the first thing you did when you heard the news?

Howie and I had just gotten up and he'd read the news at Dave's Garden. It was unreal watching it unfold, and I remember just feeling dumbstruck. One of the first things I did was call the friends my folks were visiting out of state, just needing that connection and to make sure they were okay. They'd already gotten to the friends' home, and they were all watching the news together.

2. When those truly responsible for the attack are apprehended, what do you think would be the most fitting form of justice?

My first inclination is a trial, and death to those who are behind it. Of course, that would make those people martyrs, I suppose, and that could serve to fan the flames. But if they are kept imprisoned, there would be attempts to free them and who knows where that would lead, either. Yuck. The problem is knowing who really is behind it, I guess. I am not a big politcal person, to be honest. And these questions make me squirm...I don't blacklist an entire ethnicity based on the actions of a few. I know politics are going to outweigh any normalcy in due process. But I think any murderer should be brought before justice if the evidence is clear. Justice...Boy, that's weighted, isn't it? Just working through this folks - I don't see any black and white at this point.

3. This will probably be much like when our parents respond to "Where were you when JFK was shot?"- an event never forgotten by those who were there. But how do you think the history books should present the 9-11 attacks? Should it be included for all future generations? How can we truly convey the shock, the outrage, the emotions and pain of that day to the children of our children?

YES, I believe it should be included! First-hand accounts of those searching for their missing friends and families, stories of the brave people who volunteered to aid in the seraches...None of it should be kept out. I don't know how you could fully convey the shock and pain of it; after all, there are those who staunchly believe the Holocaust never happened. Tell that to the tattood survivors and their families.

4. No one in that building, in the Pentagon, or on the planes (other than the terrorists) knew that 9-11 would be their last day to be alive. For me, it brought home the reality that I could be gone at anytime, without any warning. Now, I really want each day to have some value. Did the events of 9-11 bring about a change in the way you live your life?

I am more thankful of my friends, and more conscious of keeping in touch with them. I must admit that, as that date fell further into the past, my sense of urgency about it has declined. I have, as the pundits told us to, tried to "go on living my life" and to me that sometimes become a very insular existance.

5. Several who loved to fly in planes will not step foot in one anymore. Many parents are more protective of their children. A year later, do you find yourself feeling more secure than back then? Or is it just a matter of time before something else happens?

I vascillate between feeing doomed and forgetting there's even anything wrong. I guess I feel a sense of anticipation, feeling something is going to happen, but I try not to dwell on it. What can my worrying about it do to change it? I can pray, though, and I do.

6. The best way for me to honor the those impacted by the attack will be to refrain from any media that day. No papers, no radio and especially no television. Others will light candles, and others will attend special services. What, if anything, will you do to personally reflect on the tragedy?

I think I will talk to others about it, especially with the close community of friends I have online. I don't know how much regular media I want to see, or I can handle seeing again. I watched a little bit of 60 Minutes Sunday night, but I made myself quit watching because...Well, because I didn't want to see the images again. I'll never forget them.

7. One of the visuals that touched me the most were the walls and walls full of hand made "Missing" posters. What image will you always have in your mind when you recall the events of 9-11?

The image I will carry forever is one of people leaping from the towers, choosing to jump rather than be burned alive. It's so horrific, especially the pair seen jumping hand-in-hand. Oh, God.

BONUS: Who's gonna come around when you break?

Who? Why The Cars, of course.

No, Buddy...

As most of you know, our beagle is named Buddy. He's a good little guy, but he's sorely tempted by trash and anything remotely chewable. Just now, he was nosing around in the trash can by the desk (banana peel...irresistable). I intoned in a low voice, "No, Buddy...."

Then Howie chimed in, "knows the trouble I've seen".

Sheesh.